Since my mind is so jumbled up and I’m too lazy to pen it down on a note, I shall just throw my messy thoughts in this space where the readership is nearly zero. Phew! (:
In about 2 weeks, I’ll be taking my ballet exam, entering the exact same room with a completely different examiner, taking a different grade with a time difference of 3 years. Honestly, with a completely different take and feeling to this exam. I have no clue what to expect of myself. I’ll probably take it with grace and smile when the time actually comes. I just do the silent prayers I have been doing for all the nerve wrecking events I’ve been to.
In about 4 weeks then, I’ll be leaving Singapore for my studies over in UK. Ready? Prepared? – No. Nothing’s done. Nothing’s approved. More appointments and phone calls to make and the time I can squeeze for everyone who cared about me. Be it significant or not, they have brought me to where I am today and I’m nothing but grateful for the wonderful support I had from everyone.
As I pen these words down, I’m literally asking myself, will I be ready to leave for the new environment that I had daringly placed myself into few months back when I made the decision? I guess I’ll never be ready, never be prepared but throwing that aside, I know I’ll definitely embrace myself for this.
Life will probably throw us a thousand things, I’m probably too young to have a biography, but then again, even Justin Bieber has an autobiography at the age of 15. I have faced issues during the past few years of growing up. Taking responsibilities for whatever actions I made. I probably didn’t had as many hurdles to jump over as compared to the million of girls out there. But I had my own fair share of pains and issues to look at.
I have a set of believes for myself. Sometimes, these believes tend to waiver due to the circumstances that come across me. I don’t expect anyone including my family to see what I believe in. Because, my actions came with price. The experiences I picked up from people or myself.
This post is probably one of the wordiest post I have ever got myself in ever since the new year came. Not that thoughts had be always superficial, but I’ve learnt – that the online media is one scary place to be too involved in. It kills.
I believe that happiness is within our own grasp and whatever emotions you choose to be in while a happy person may not have a fairytale life, she chooses to see things at a different perspective.
